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Act Your Age

Thoughts on turning 55 - September 11, 2018

I love the adage "I don't know how to act my age, I've never been this age before".

How do you act "55"? Should I be stoic, and look stern and learned? Should I go around pretending that because of my age I don't feel childish at times? Should I go around lamenting I didn't accomplish more in my youth?

To be honest, I don't know how to feel about being 55. It's not really all THAT old. I mean, it's just a little more than middle aged, but less than elderly. There are things I can't do that I could do easily in my 30's, but there I things I know how to do that I couldn't have imagined in my 30's.

I have aches and pains sometimes, but not so much that I need some robocall every other day telling me they have the cure for my chronic aches and pains. The cure for that chronic pain is to stop calling me.

Fifty-five isn't the end of anything. As a matter of fact, I just started a new "career" this past year and am really enjoying what I do. It's the start of something, not the end of anything. We are also starting another new venture, so apparently we aren't too old to start new stuff or learn new tricks.

I loved being a parent in my younger adult years. So much though that sometimes I feel like I'm still parenting young people around me. I love being a Papa, but don't feel like a grandfather.

God has been so good to me. I'm in a season of peace and contentment. And, while that's a great place to be, I also acknowledge that it's not the place He wants me to stay. I know he has plans for me and is just allowing me this time to rest in preparation for the great things he has planned.

God has taken me from a time when I despaired of ever climbing out of the hole I had dug for myself to a new place, not on top of a mountain yet, but in a peaceful valley. He's begun to allow me to dream of the mountain top, but also allowed me to see that I'm not quite ready to climb yet.

' I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord , who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber.' Psalms 121:1-3 ESV